Lamentation
Everything exists to draw us deeper into the heart of our Father- Abba. All joy, pain, loneliness, frustration and love we experience exists for this sole purpose. This truth is becoming more and more evident.
Joy. Joy overflows as a result of His goodness and blessing; we in turn run to Him in gratefulness. Anything less would be to deny ourselves experiencing true joy. The joy He gives us is given because He loves us and wants to woo us and romance us. Every laugh and glimmer of hope is an invitation to come and commune with Him; to be His.
Pain. Pain, gripping at your heart and tearing at your soul. Pain that zapps your strength till you are running dry and too weary to continue on. This too can become an expression of our Father's love. He does not cause the pain but redeems it by calling us into His arms and taking away all other options of comfort besides the refuge of resting between His shoulders. This stripping away is agonizing until we are so pulled and captivated by the pain that we suddenly realize that the pull writhing within us is from a fierce and jealous Lover longing to know us and be known by us; A lover longing to redeem our pain and offer His strength.
Loneliness. Lonely emptiness is what I am left with as I chase after the candy of the world for fulfillment and happiness. Pain apart from Christ is hopeless devastation, swallowing all life in its vacuum, leaving nothing left of substance and worth, so all that remains is a lonely emptiness. But Christ is a source that will never run dry, filling us past the point of overflowing. He is a faithful companion who will never leave our side. No matter how far and fast we can run- He continues to run further and faster.
Frustration. Frustration comes because my pride says just persevere and it will get better, just try a little harder. Frustration is: not having all the answers; trying your best and still falling short- always falling short. But it is the falling that allows our Savior the satisfaction and pleasure of catching us, of grabbing us by the hand and guiding us safely and tenderly to a deeper more intimate dwelling.
Love. All love we feel is a reflection of Abba's love for us. It is laced and woven with the chords of His kindness and the threads of His affection. Romance, intimacy, desire, passion, excitement all exist to entice us. We crave them because He yearns to bestow them abundantly upon us as we, in response to His glorious invitation, come.
Am I worth pursuing? Am I worth fighting for? The undeniable, definite, daring answer is yes. The Lover of my soul is in constant pursuit of me. He gives me desires and affections that I too often look to the world to fulfill when it is He who places these longings in my heart because He wants to be the one to bestow on me every desire of my heart. He is passionately pursuing me with every second of my frail existence.
The love He offers is unending, unfailing, unconditional, exstravagant, secure and faithful. He is fighting for my love. He is fighting for me. He has what it takes and wants to share it with me. He wants to make me more than a conqueror- He wants to make me His prize, His beauty, His delight.
Possibly the bigger question here is this- Is He worth pursuing? Is He worth fighting for? My lips and heart quickly respond with an emphatic yes. But what do my actions say? Do I allow Him to romance me? Do I put on the slinky red dress and perfume to further captivate and allure Him as His Beauty because He has given his abandoned all for me? Or do I reject Him by saying, not now- I'm not in the mood; or maybe later- I am really busy right now; or how about this time next week so I can make sure my calendar is cleared. Or worse yet, you can have me but only part of me, I am sharing this other part with something else, so I can't give you my all.
I am His beauty, His prize. I am His. Everything exists in Him, by Him and for Him. I am no substitute to this truth. I have an invitation to indulge in the most intimate, passionate and exciting love with the intricate, majestic, magnificent Romancer of my soul. He has been longing for me to be His since before the beginning of time. He beckons me to love Him with my whole heart- all my heart. He loves me with an exstravagent abandon and yearns for my heart to respond to this love with a recklessly abandoned heart to loving exstravagantly by giving Him my all and my best. His love is so vast that nothing can contain it or seperate me from it. He calls me by name- He calls me His own.
My Lover is mine and I am His.
posted by Kellie # 10:27 PM
