Awaken the Dawn
Today I was reading an encouraging chapter about dreams and not giving up on or ignoring what God has placed in our hearts.
I am realizing a life long dream of mine tomorrow:
I am expecting 13 very special packages in the mail... 1,000 CD's
I recently completed my first recording project. It has taken me two years filled with many prayers, tears, and laughs to get to this point. But praise God for bringing me here in His perfect timing. He is never early and never late.
When I first started this project I expected it to be finished in a couple of weeks and two years later I am finally able to hold the finished product.
But through the frustration God has shown me that His ways are higher than my ways and that His timing is perfect. He has shown me His sovereignty through truly crafting this project on His terms. I have been diligent to continue to lay this dream at His feet not knowing what, if anything, would come of it.
I can see His grace in letting it take this long- what was frustration has now turned into praise. I am thankful for God saying, "not yet...wait my child" for I know that had I finished this at any other time it would not have been in the fullness of what God wanted it to be.
This has been a good lesson in patience for me- one of many lessons I'm sure! But God has continued to make it so evident that His timing is perfect.
I have a new link on the website. If you look to the left of the page under the 'photos' button you will see a link, 'awaken the dawn'. On this new page I will put updates about the latest concert information and ways to get CDs, etc.
I am having a CD release concert in memory of AJ this Sunday evening, November 13th at 8:00 pm at our Church, New Covenant. If you are in the area, it'd be great for you to come.
It will be a night of worship- which is what we all were created to do. I want to simply honor God and lavish love on Him in response to the love He so graciously and abundantly pours out on us.
I am doing it in memory of AJ because he was such a major part of this project. Most of the songs were written during our time together. AJ supported me completely in the project and encouraged me throughout the process. He wouldn't let me settle or take any short cuts. He also played bass and acoustic guitar on the project.
In a lot of ways I feel like I am finishing something we started together. Besides the huge task of raising Eli, this is the last thing AJ and I started together that has been left undone...until now. It is good to finish this.
I cried upon hearing the completed CD for many reasons. Relief to realize a dream. Joy over the outcome of the project. Pain in the reality that AJ isn't here with me to enjoy this moment; to see this dream fulfilled.
Yesterday the band and I were rehearsing for the concert. We were really jammin and it was powerful music. My eyes watered up. I was so happy and excited to hear the songs come to life. I had so much satisfaction knowing here I was rehearsing for the CD release concert- a moment I had anticipated for a long time.
But with that was a huge unfillable whole...
AJ...
I wanted him up on the stage next to me booming on his bass with a grin on his face and that twinkle in his eyes that shows me he is so proud. In my mind's eye I could see it- but I ached for it to be real. I wanted to share this moment with him.
I am not certain what will come of this whole project. All God has shown me was the very thing I am supposed to do now- each step of the way. I do not know if the CD and the songs will amount to much at all. I simply want to be faithful with all that God has given me and allow this to be exactly what God needs it to be. I surrender to His ways and His desires. I am His, my life is His and this project is His and anything to come is His.
I do hope that you will join me in covering the concert and this new season of my releasing this CD in prayer- that God would continue to have His way in me and be willing to use me as His vessel. That I would stay humble and focused on Him, knowing that apart from Him I have and can do nothing. And please pray that He would anoint me and this project and open the right doors for me, giving me the wisdom to know what steps to take or not take.
Also, don't forget to check out the new 'awaken the dawn' link for updates.
To order a CD please email me at: CD@ajandkellie.com
posted by Kellie # 8:03 AM
