Eli Update
We are all back home now. Vacation in beautiful sunny Captiva Island Florida is now over. With that, I feel as though summer is over. School has started for the children. All the stores have the 'summer' clothes on clearance and the fall clothes on display. The networks are beginning to air their season premiers. And, if you can believe it, football season has already been kicked off by a slew of preseason games. Soon the air will begin to have some nip in it and the sunshine will hide beneath the horizon earlier than it had the day before. I will be left with another nostalgic longing for the fun hot days of summer and iced tea.
As soon as Eli and I returned home from vacation I found life was moving yet again at the speed of light. Yesterday Eli had another EEG which is always a long hard experience for all involved. It is so hard to keep a 1 year old laying on his back while he is having lots of tiny wires glued to his head. Eli couldn't understand and was crying so hard about it all. This tore my heart apart. Mia was there too and trying to offer comfort. Soon Eli wore himself out and dozed off to sleep. I do think he is the cutest little sleeper in the entire world!
The same EEG technician does the test everytime Eli has and EEG. After many EEG's we are beginning to become familiar with the process and all the people involved. It is so great to walk into the doctor's office and be greeted with excited smiles and nurses reaching out to hold Eli and give him some 1st class lovin'.
After Eli's last EEG a few months ago the EEG tech was very excited about the results. But this time when we finished the test he was very quiet. I knew it must be because the news was not so good. I inquired about what Eli's patterns were showing. He said that the EEG looked a lot like the first EEG he performed on Eli. This was very disappointing news.
I am sure part of the problem with my disappointment was that I had such high expectations. After the previous test there was talk of Eli being able to come off of his medicine if he had another good EEG. That was what I was hoping for. I had just assumed he was completely normal since the previous EEG showed that- so likewise I expected that to be further confirmed by yesterday's test.
While it is disappointing, it is also good in that it was a major wake up call for me. I realized that Eli does still need extra care and attention. He does still have a risk that I need to be watching for. While yes, I do believe God has healed him and made him whole- the results of that healing will still take time to develop into its fullness.
I also left the doctor's office yesterday with a lot more questions. Since I had just assumed Eli was fine I never really felt the need to ask many questions about his condition aside from what information the doctor offered to me. Now I have a lot of questions to ask such as how does is make Eli feel, how does this affect his emotions since the major continuous spikes were in his temporal lobe which controls his emotions? Barb and I wrote down our questions on a list as we were driving home.
Next Monday the 22nd, Eli has another appointment with Dr. Kojic, his neurologist. That will be a great time to find out the answers to my questions and to learn how I can best be helping and protecting Eli. I want the best for him. I so want for him to be free from all this. But, I have to believe he is going through this for a purpose. I know God is using this to shape Eli and myself and as a result it will bring Him more glory. After all, all glory and honor is due His name.
So, a final thing I am convicted of is the realization that I should still be interceeding for Eli's health and healing. I also ask that you would continue to lift him up as God tugs on your heart to do so. Pray as well that I would continue to have grace and not be discouraged as we are walking through all of this together. I realize that I can not do this alone. But I keep coming back to the powerful words of encouragement Christ told me in 2 Corinthian 12:9, "My gracious favor is all you need. My power works best in your weakness."
To Christ be all glory and honor and power now and forever. Amen.
posted by Kellie # 1:42 PM
