A Horse Fell in the Mud
With little over an hour left of the day our culture celebrates love- I am finally succumbing to the emotion of this holiday. I have been on autopilot all day. I just acted as if it was just an ordinary day. My energy has run out and I can't ignore it anymore. Tonight I have been crying over AJ- I still am. I miss him so much. I just really miss him- his love, his comfort, and his affection. What more is there to say...
I put on my point shoes and some good classical music tonight. I have been doing ballet to try to relieve my emotions. I always feel beautiful when I dance. It is an intimate thing between me and God. I worship Him as I dance. I feel His love as I am before Him. I feel beautiful before Him. I might not look beautiful dancing to the world's eye and standard- but I really don't care, this is an intimate thing I share with my Savior. The beauty of it is that it is not before the world's eye, but instead in the quiet of my room where I am free from judgment.
I don't know if dancing helped. I guess it helped me grieve and express my emotion. I know this is a good thing for me to do. Even though it hurts while I am crying, even though my heart is breaking- I know God is ministering to me as I dance in His healing waters. Oh how I just want more of Him in my life- more love and more power. I long for more of Him and less of me. I must decrease so He can increase.
So since I am feeling down tonight I thought it'd be good if I asked for some pick me ups- a.k.a -jokes! Do you know any good jokes? Post them here by clicking the comment button and following the directions. I'd love to hear some things to make me laugh. But please just share clean jokes- I don't want to hear anything about horses falling in the mud!!!
posted by Kellie # 10:58 PM
