Never Underestimate the Power of Silence
I know I have not been around here on this earth for a very long time. Most people have lived more years here than I have. But yet I feel as though I have experienced more in my short lifetime than most ever come to live through. I do not for one instant sit here and even begin to think that I have wisdom or that I have learned all there is to know. All I know is that I have a lot more to learn.
Still, through the past experiences that I have been through and with all I am walking through now, I have learned many things. One of the major things I have learned is the importance of silence.
God reminded me of how important this really is yesterday in a very powerful way.
Some days are just harder than others. I don't know what makes them harder, they seem like ordinary days- but for some reason they are just harder. Yesterday was one of those days for me. Maybe what makes them harder is that everything is more intense and more emotional.
I know when I start to get overwhelmed that I need to run as fast as I can back into the arms of my Savior; my Creator; my God. One of the best places for me to meet God is when I am at my piano. I go there and I play and just worship Him. It helps me completely abandon myself to Him.
After nearly an hour of playing various worship songs and loving on God I began to leave the written music on the pages before me and enter into an open free worship, letting my fingers just play what ever they played. In doing that I became overwhelmed with the Spirit. This hasn't happened many times in my life at all. It was so real, like God was just right there with me. I could almost feel His hands brushing over my hands as I played. I could practically feel His breath on the small hairs on the back of my neck. It was good. It was intense. It was overwhelming.
It became so overwhelming and real that I could no longer bring my fingers to move across the piano. I began just playing one note over and over again. I know this probably sounds weird but it was like I was having a conversation with God in my spirit through all of this.
The intensity continued to grow.....
Silence.....................................................................
There was then a very long period of silence. It was the loudest silence I had ever heard. God met me there in that silence. He was so present. I couldn't and wouldn't even attempt to speak or make a sound- not that I would have been capable even if I wanted to.
It was amazing.
I can't tell you a specific thing God spoke to me yesterday. It was more like He just dumped loads of peace deep into the well of my spirit. He was comforting me and encouraging me. He was loving on me.
Sometimes I am afraid of silence. There is so much that we hear and have to face when we allow ourselves to enter into silence. I have found in my life that when God wants to speak to me, He usually waits until I am silent and I give Him a chance to speak to me.
Our culture seems anti-silence. There is sound all around us-between the hum of the AC and fluorescent lights, the radio, the TV, and even the words on pages make noise. It is an amazing feat to come apart into silence. To get away and get quiet.
I am challenging myself to spend more time in silence before God. To spend less time talking and more time listening. I am challenging you as well. I know this much- the silence is not always comfortable, but it is ALWAYS good.
posted by Kellie # 11:13 AM
