Growth Charts and Loofas
Eli had his 4 month well-baby check up today. He is growing so fast. He had lost 2 lbs during his hospital stay because he was unable to eat for a few days. At his weigh in today he had gained all the weight he had lost plus an additional 4 ounces- what a big guy! He is in the 55% for his weight and the 95% for his length compared to other boys his same age. He is long and lean just like his daddy.
I miss his daddy more than he could know. I look at pictures of him and I reminisce of memories that we have shared- all good and most funny. They make me laugh, he was so good at making me laugh. I remember one morning when we were living up in DC and AJ got up before the rooster (aka- 5:15 am). He was taking a shower and I was still in bed trying to catch a few more zzz's. Then all of the sudden I am awakened to the sound of him singing in a silly voice. This is what he was singing:
"I am washing my body with Kellie's loofa!!! Getting all clean and shiny with Kellie's loofa!!! I love scrubbing my body with Kellie's loofa!!!"
It was so funny. I think the funniest part was that before that morning he had never used my loofa. He always just used a wash cloth. To those of you who do not know what a loofa is, it is a big puffy sponge. The other reason it was funny was that AJ didn't ever sing in the shower. Also, it was so early in the morning and anyone who knows AJ knows he is not a morning person.
I could write silly AJ stories forever, there are so many. So many wonderful happy memories.
I know I come across in these blogs as having it all together and it all figured out. Let me just tell you- that I am so far from having all the answers, I am just trying to hold on and keep on walking as best as I can. I have never been so desperate in my life. I am so distraught and so broken. God's grace is overwhelming and abundant and thankfully sufficient. With out him I know I wouldn't have made it even this far.
I remember I used to tell AJ that I could never live with out him and that I was created to be his wife. Both of those statements were true. But now I face the undaunting task of learning how to live with out him. The even greater task will be raising our son alone, with out AJ. AJ was so wise and such a visionary and leader. He was such a great example of a Godly husband and father fulfilling all the roles that are described in scripture for a man of God to fulfill. I loved him so much. I miss him greatly.
posted by Kellie # 7:28 PM
